Enemy Time

Time is the enemy. Just when you think you have so much of it, you have none left. Why is that?

I can’t seem to get a handle on time. It goes by so fast and before you know it you look back at your year and realize how little you have actually accomplished. 

Part of the problem, I think, is that my creative brain can think so fast. I get an idea and think it will take no time at all to accomplish it. It seems so easy. But when I sit down to actually accomplish that idea, I find out it takes so much more time to make it become a reality.

Drawing takes time, sometimes hours to complete a drawing to meet my own expectations. Finding your artistic style and voice takes time. Learning everything you need to know about the technical side of the internet takes time. Websites take time. Social media posting takes time. Writing blog posts take time. And, at the end of the day or the year, it all adds up. 

Let me be frank with you… if you are thinking of a career as an artist, you need to really understand what it actually takes. 

Unfortunately, you will not make it as an artist unless you are exceptionally lucky or are willing to put in the work. Myself personally, I am not a lucky person, so I have to default to the work which takes a tremendous amount of time. 

Ever since I was a kid, I dreamed of becoming an artist. I dreamed of painting and filling galleries full of artwork. I painted some lovely paintings in high school and won the 1st ever art award given out at my school. I choose to pursue my art learning in university and surrounded myself with other artists. 

When I left this art bubble I realized this was not an easy career. Because of this, I turned my back on my art for a decade. But like most artists, my art drew me back. I didn’t have a choice and started to create again. It was either produce art or go insane with all the creative ideas and possibilities.

I jumped around for years, trying to figure things out. How the heck was I supposed to fill my desire for an art career. To this day, I still haven’t managed to figure out how to make it work but my belief is still going strong. 

An art career is not something that happens over night. It is not like applying for a job and getting hired. It requires an entrepreneurial spirit with a lot of marketing know-how thrown in. If you don’t have either of these on top of your desire to create artwork, then stick to making art as a hobby. There, honestly, is nothing wrong with that.

It takes years for art to start making money for you. It requires dedication, routine and consistency. It requires talking to crickets until someone, eventually, listens. It requires setting down a foundation of steady work habits. It requires as much work put in as any other kind of regular day job, if not more.

The nice thing about this Covid pandemic, if there is a nice thing, is that I have been given the opportunity to finally focus on my own art full time. I have never taken the time to do so. For so many years, I have been torn with family duties and obligations. I was putting into practice all the things I have learned about technology for other people, instead of myself.

Since April, I have have been working everyday on my art and have been making leaps and bounds worth of progress. There is no way I could have come so far on only part time hours. And, I have so much further to go. Art simply takes too much time. The reality of this is harsh and disappointing for any artist who does not have the time to invest.  

But at the end of the day, even if I can’t accomplish my dream art career, I will be able to look back and say that I gave it my all. Who knows, I might be able to help some other artists in the process. I think, that is something that makes me happy, brings me hope and gives me something to strive for. 

I believe my art career will all take off one day, but in the meantime, I will put my head down and draw something, write something or just plain create something no matter the time it takes.